12:01 AM Haha, the genting trip was fun. haha, plus i am tall enough to sit all the rides there too.
See the dolphin above? i won it. haha.
May be going again later in Decemember.
2:57 PM Haiz, there's nothing much i can do but apologise. But it's not like you would listen, haiz.
But, i will still apologise:
I'm Sorry
9:14 PM Ok, so the exams are finally over. However it just means that i have to start preparing for my Chinese o levels.
After our last paper, which was biology paper one, our class celebrated the birthdays of Shi Wei and Shu Hui. Then we proceeded to go to yishun SAFRA for bowling. It was during this time that i finally learnt how to hook a ball. luckily for me, there was a coach teaching a left-handed girl how to hook a ball. so i took the chance to learn. After the bowling game, i went home. And well, it was very boring, so i went rollerblading with Yu Fen, who was learning how to rollerblade. And after that i went home.
Next day, Saturday 9th may, woke up and went to temple to pray cause it was vesak day. Then at 5pm i went to my grandmothers house for a family gathering. Don't know why, but i was very unlucky, played mahjong till 1.15am. Despite winning a bit at first, i loss over 10 dollars, oh well, that gambling. you win some you lose some.
Then on Sunday 10th may, went for maths tuition and after that parents brought me to takashimaiya to buy new shoes. At about 2pm, i went to rollerblade again. this time Xue Ci came too. So there were 3 people rollerblading. it was also on this day that i fell quite a lot of times. haiz, and i think i injured my back when i fell on my butt.
Then finally today, i tried to organise a class outing which turned into and epic failure. Sure, in the end the guys got to cycle and all, but it felt very empty. Don't really know how to describe it, hmm, i guess it was just that i was not in the mood. haiz, waited an hour just to get scolded. yes, i am so pissed off at myself. i wanted to organise it cause it would be my last time relaxing and just wanted to go out with some friends and just have fun. haiz.
It was a pretty much last minute thing, so it was not very well organised so i apologise to those who felt i wasted your time.
8:57 PM ok, finally after about 1 month i am going to make a post. First of all, my subject grades are falling and i am having less and less sleep. The elements presentation is coming up and we have to present on 13April, however i feel we are not prepared and are worse off than last year. Haiz...... however being so busy does have it's advantages cause i can get my mind off some stuff. Second, my drive to study is seriously dying, i cannot find a purpose to study(this is very bad) and i am lagging behind in class.
However, i believe i can catch up after my elements has been finished and stay focused. Just watch Mulan(a disney movie), really makes me think about how i spend my time. though i would say Mulan is still a nice show and i like the storyline. Well, i guess that's all. Gonna have to prepare for elements and give it my all, i mean, after all whatever the outcome it was a great experience and i got to say that the group has put in a lot of effort.
So lets spend the remaining days we have before presentation and do our best.
1:12 AM Hey, i am leaving for Taiwan and will only be back on 18 of March. haha. Oh well, if you cannot contact me it is cause i am overseas.
As for elements, i swear that i will chiong the moment i get back from Taiwan. Poor Liang Wei, don't worry, i will help after the field trip, till then i wish you best of luck.
Hope i won't miss the plane tomorrow.
It was dumb of me to wait for a reply, haha.
2:17 AM Seriously, i am having so little sleep since the start of the year. On average i am just sleeping less than 6 hours everyday, it is a miracle that i am still able to be awake in class.
Since i have not posted for a very long time, i will try to make this post a longer one. 1 thing i would like to announce is that i am going to Taiwan (hurray). of course because of the trip all Taiwan field trip participant have to go for training, i am actually surprised that i can run 2.4km in 11.39 minutes. Also for my beep test aka VO2 max test i got 10.1. it has been a very great improvement from my sec 2 which was only about 7.x.
the post at the bottom may not make sense to you it is just something i have thought about
Since the start of the year i have been pushing myself to do well and stuff and i am surprised i have not given up and stuff. while thinking about all this i asked myself why i am doing all this. have you ever wondered why you do the things you do? for example why do you try so hard in something even though you know the results are not what you want. or why do you study so hard. or why you push yourself so hard.
i know that there is usually pride and all when it comes to this kind of stuff but what is the purpose of doing what you do. who or what are you working so hard for, for me the reason why i study is basically 2 thing first of all it is for my pride and second it is for my parents. i don't want to disappoint my parents.
Why do i continuously sleep so late, why do i work so hard for the projects, why do i bother to wait even though i know the outcome. Why?
What makes people endure so much and push themselves.
Yet another question that i have yet to find an answer to.
Perhaps all we need is a reason, no matter how bleak the situation is, we still cling on to that slight chance, thus we push ourselves clinging on to that thin thread or that little glow in the darkness called hope and it is that hope that causes us to push ourselves forward regardless of what lies ahead.
Perhaps that is the reason.
11:47 PM It has been a month since i last posted. haha. chinese new year has come once again and i can finally gamble. well basically on the first 2 days of chinese year i went to my grandmother's house to celebrate Chinese New Year and of course collect "Ang Bao" sadly after that was immediately our term test. however now that the exams are over i can finally relax, of course i still have to do my revision for my various subjects and handle my CCA and Elements project. even though the exams are over i am still so busy.
on Sunday 15 people from the class went to Xue Ci's house to Bai Nian, it was enjoyable. When we played blackjack despite winning for the early part of the game, i made a loss of a few dollars. guess i was not so lucky after all. i was the banker though, well thats what gambling is you win some you lose some. perhaps is cause Sufyan left half way throughout the game causing my cards to turn crappy. haha.
i guess this is all for today's post, i will try to update more regularly.
Happy Chinese New Year.
